Miss-Stella

Miss it.. as always

GOt back form Sacramento last night. i still love that place.

Friday was a busy day that ended with anxiety.. thats happening too much lately! Even though it ended with an anxiety attack i love that:

i got to see my Susie!
she made me beautiful
got to go to dinner with my friend ryan
got to hang with jackie
got to have girl talk

Saturday was a day where i had too much to do and little time, but after having worries about how i was going to do everything, i was actually bale to work everything out and get everything accomplished with even adding in a nap. i need to get better at that becuase i probably wouldn’t have had a freak out the night before if i woulda figured things out quicker. 

it’s soooo nice to pull myself away from school. yesterday evening i got to just lay around at Jackie’s, which was must needed, 1. because it’s been to long since i could and 2. because i was about to go spend some time with Kim and her friends before i made the 2 hour drive back home. i was still pretty tired when the night ended but at least i was able to see her before she leaves for San Diego. I now have somewhere to go when i see those great southwest fares that are basically nothing! San Diego here i come!

Kim was wearing these awesome heels by Dolce Vita, i kinda wanna go spend money i don’t have and get a pair for myself. (They look better on, with a pair of cuffed jeans, white tank and black cardigan, the standard outfit for us)

I must now get to writing my 10 page paper… eek!

already thursday evening

oh man, where is my time going? seriously the last few weeks have flown by while i am sinking into a hole of school work and responsibilities. so i for sure failed my exam, got the grade today to prove it. Teachers said that if students drastically improve their test scores, he will bump your grade at the end. Which sounds great, but this class is so challenging. Have the people in class are taking it for the second time, and failing again! never did i think i would be in there shoes, but it looks like I’m following in their foot steps, and trying so hard not to. Teacher also says bad grades are most likely a result of not studying enough, and not having enough time. well hmmm?… what should i do to fix this. i studied for HOURS.. and i MEAN hours and hours! And as far as time goes, Ya i feel like i never have enough time, but isn’t that how everyone feels?

I have 12 pages worth of papers to write by monday night. YUCK. i’m such a slow writer too. and on top of that i will be out of town from tomorrow around noon till saturday evening. we all know what i will be doing sunday! waa

Didn’t feel well this morning, so called in sick for work tomorrow as caution, i will use it to catch up on some work. even though my shift only equals the time of watching two lectures. 

Get to see my friend jackie and ryan tomorrow. WooHoo, can’t wait. Miss my sacramento friends soo much. they were the few friends that were there for me through the toughest times i’ve experienced so far in my life.

Last weekend was Salina and Chris’s wedding. It’s so odd to see a friend that you have literally known all your life grow up and get married. I remember us talking about that one day when we get married when we were like 14. I’m so happy for them. 

MUST get to home work.. waaaa

:l

how do i get my confidence back after failing my accounting test.

i was looking forward to a night with him, but he’s leaving now.

If i could go shopping

I am really enjoying this month’s InStyle Magazine, it makes me wanna shop. And if i had the money to… this is what i would buy…. (this is why i must study, and get excellent grades.. so i can make money and spend LOTS of it on clothes, shoes and accessories)

CityChic 

what i should be doing

i should be studying for my Intermediate accounting test that is on Thursday but i can’t seem to do it. Last semester i took the first part of intermediate accounting and i ended up getting a crappy B-. I was not pleased with that grade at all! So now i’m in part two of intermediate accounting, and i’m terrified. Everyone says 302 is much harder than 301 and i’m believing them. I need to change my mind set about the whole thing, but its very difficult. My professor told me not to be intimidated, and just to think that if others can do it, i can do it too. I know i’m smart, and i know i can do it, i’m just so scared. With hearing from all the negative professors and firm recruiters, i feel like there is SOOO much pressure to do perfect. i can do this. the first test is ONLY three chapters: investments, bonds, and leases.

While in class last week, i thought to myself “maybe i should just start over with basic accounting, maybe i would feel like i actually knew what everyone was taking about. I sit in class, and students around me ask all these questions, and my mind wasn’t even going in that direction. In order for me to grasp the lesson, i have to go home and go over it slowly. the 85 min class is not enough for me.

i better get to the books :( waaaa

ZzzZzZzzz

i would rather not be sleeping alone.

Hrmm

Got my Keel’s SIMPLE DIARY in the mail today, the quote of the day is

“If it’s not there, there is nothing to find out”

i like it.